1:26pm March 11th 2019
Its been.... over a month since i posted here.
That dosent matter. I dont have to post here unless i feel like i have something to say.
But god help me im back on that sad shit. Im also back on that being a bad friend shit so im gonna ramble and rant till i have to pack up and head to class in a bit
I wanna cover 2 topics though. Therapy and Zoe.
We can start with Therapy. Getting therapy through Vocal Rehab has been such a pain in the ass. They keep miscommunicating and canceling my appointments and over all it has has sucked. If this apointment friday dosent happen or go well im just gonna seek out other options. I know that Luis sugested the place that he is taking his mom and i think i might be able to just contact Spartanburg's department of mental health and see what they say i can do.
Next with the whole Zoe issues. Weve been on this ice for a few days now. A week as of tonight actually. Last week her and i got into a fight cause i told her that her obsesion with Panic! at The Disco is unhealthy. She wanted to get a tattoo to comimorate the concert she went to and got mad at me when i told her that wasent a good idea. She got mad at the band members when they got tattoos of their own logo cuase she wanted to get that as a tattoo. She cut her hair to look like the lead singer. She had a panic attack over losing a braclet that she found after the concert on the sidewalk. She has gotten super depressed over the band members not noticing her art on instagram or readding her comments in live stream chats. When the band members got their tattoo's she said "i know they didnt mean to..." as if they would have considered her wanting a tattoo of their logo before getting one themselves. She acts as if this man who has 44 MILLION fans not noticing her indavidually is a personal offence like its something he did on purpose.
When i expressed my concern she got extreamly angry and tried to flip the convorsation to me being selfish for wanting to take a 2 month long road trip to find myself. A trip i have been reserching for a while and wanting to go on for 2 years. A trip that i want to go on to help better my mental health as well as cross some things off my bucket list i supose. Zoe had the audacity to claim that all of my other friends and family didnt love or care about me cause they were willing to work with me and support me in making this trip happen. Zoe said that she knows the dangers that are out there and that im putting myself at risk cause she wants to be a FBI AGENT!!! So i told her that she cant talk about the dangers of my two month trip if she is planning on purposfully putting herself in harms way as a career for the rest of her life. I told her that i have been preparing for the worst and that i was raised by mild dooms day prepper i know the dangers that im facing. She told me that nothing can prepare me for life and i couldnt help but laugh. I asked if she goes to school. that going to school puts her at risk of being the victim of a school shooting. i asked if she rides in cars. i told her that more people die every year in car accidents than die from violent crimes. She said that she's scared of car rides and that she dosent go to school willingly that she has to. i told her that living in your comfort zone your whole life is a fate worse than dying. She had told me that she wasnt gonna be able to apply for the FBI till she was 21 and i told her that i wasnt leaving on my trip till i was 21. She actually fucking said that wasent the same cause i would be 21 before her. like yeah??? thats how age works Zoe lmao. I told her that i was older than her and that therefore im gonna be ready to take on life experiances sooner than her. Ive had 3 jobs... she had 1 that she quit after a month or 2 cause of a "toxic work inviorment" (meaning no one there wanted to be her new bestest friend and they expected her to do work).
Ive had issues with Zoe not understanding that she is a child before. She hang out with guys in their 20's at conventions and dosent wanna stay by us at all. I wont be taking her to out of towns till she's 18 cause im not going to baby sit her and im not taking the risk of her getting snatched up becuase she dosent want to stay with us or hang out with safe to be around people.
That dosent matter. I dont have to post here unless i feel like i have something to say.
But god help me im back on that sad shit. Im also back on that being a bad friend shit so im gonna ramble and rant till i have to pack up and head to class in a bit
I wanna cover 2 topics though. Therapy and Zoe.
We can start with Therapy. Getting therapy through Vocal Rehab has been such a pain in the ass. They keep miscommunicating and canceling my appointments and over all it has has sucked. If this apointment friday dosent happen or go well im just gonna seek out other options. I know that Luis sugested the place that he is taking his mom and i think i might be able to just contact Spartanburg's department of mental health and see what they say i can do.
Next with the whole Zoe issues. Weve been on this ice for a few days now. A week as of tonight actually. Last week her and i got into a fight cause i told her that her obsesion with Panic! at The Disco is unhealthy. She wanted to get a tattoo to comimorate the concert she went to and got mad at me when i told her that wasent a good idea. She got mad at the band members when they got tattoos of their own logo cuase she wanted to get that as a tattoo. She cut her hair to look like the lead singer. She had a panic attack over losing a braclet that she found after the concert on the sidewalk. She has gotten super depressed over the band members not noticing her art on instagram or readding her comments in live stream chats. When the band members got their tattoo's she said "i know they didnt mean to..." as if they would have considered her wanting a tattoo of their logo before getting one themselves. She acts as if this man who has 44 MILLION fans not noticing her indavidually is a personal offence like its something he did on purpose.
When i expressed my concern she got extreamly angry and tried to flip the convorsation to me being selfish for wanting to take a 2 month long road trip to find myself. A trip i have been reserching for a while and wanting to go on for 2 years. A trip that i want to go on to help better my mental health as well as cross some things off my bucket list i supose. Zoe had the audacity to claim that all of my other friends and family didnt love or care about me cause they were willing to work with me and support me in making this trip happen. Zoe said that she knows the dangers that are out there and that im putting myself at risk cause she wants to be a FBI AGENT!!! So i told her that she cant talk about the dangers of my two month trip if she is planning on purposfully putting herself in harms way as a career for the rest of her life. I told her that i have been preparing for the worst and that i was raised by mild dooms day prepper i know the dangers that im facing. She told me that nothing can prepare me for life and i couldnt help but laugh. I asked if she goes to school. that going to school puts her at risk of being the victim of a school shooting. i asked if she rides in cars. i told her that more people die every year in car accidents than die from violent crimes. She said that she's scared of car rides and that she dosent go to school willingly that she has to. i told her that living in your comfort zone your whole life is a fate worse than dying. She had told me that she wasnt gonna be able to apply for the FBI till she was 21 and i told her that i wasnt leaving on my trip till i was 21. She actually fucking said that wasent the same cause i would be 21 before her. like yeah??? thats how age works Zoe lmao. I told her that i was older than her and that therefore im gonna be ready to take on life experiances sooner than her. Ive had 3 jobs... she had 1 that she quit after a month or 2 cause of a "toxic work inviorment" (meaning no one there wanted to be her new bestest friend and they expected her to do work).
Ive had issues with Zoe not understanding that she is a child before. She hang out with guys in their 20's at conventions and dosent wanna stay by us at all. I wont be taking her to out of towns till she's 18 cause im not going to baby sit her and im not taking the risk of her getting snatched up becuase she dosent want to stay with us or hang out with safe to be around people.
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