6:53am December 17th, 2018
Hello. Im Madison Spehar. But you know that cause youre me since this is all to myself or w/e you get the point.
Im 19 at the time of writing this and its 8 days before christmas. Ive been stuck in a depressed rut since Thursday and i pulled myself out earlier tonight. I know WHY i got pushed into the rut this time. I straight up slept through work. I have no idea why they dont just fire me. I dont deserve to work there. I work at Hatcher Gardens and its such a nice place. Its such a nice job. Its not something i should be able to have. I deserve some shitty fast food or retail job that i can blame my mental health issues on. I think i would have tried to die by now if i was still working at dominos. fuck that place and all the people that came with it.
except Kristen. i love kristen. shes my best friend and i would die for her. She deserves way better than me though. She could have a way better bedt friend i dont really know why she settled with me...
This really is just gonna be a bunch of gross bitching i guess.
I cant really think of anything else that i should say. theres not really even anything that needs to be said. i was just gonna bitch about missing Thursday and Friday of work and HOW DARE my step dad not let me work Friday when i didnt sleep at all cause i was to anxious to miss a day again.
but i just dont feel like going into it. I feel like going back to w/e i was watching or reading before that let me to my old blog that let me make this one. I dont know if ill even use this to be honest.
Im 19 at the time of writing this and its 8 days before christmas. Ive been stuck in a depressed rut since Thursday and i pulled myself out earlier tonight. I know WHY i got pushed into the rut this time. I straight up slept through work. I have no idea why they dont just fire me. I dont deserve to work there. I work at Hatcher Gardens and its such a nice place. Its such a nice job. Its not something i should be able to have. I deserve some shitty fast food or retail job that i can blame my mental health issues on. I think i would have tried to die by now if i was still working at dominos. fuck that place and all the people that came with it.
except Kristen. i love kristen. shes my best friend and i would die for her. She deserves way better than me though. She could have a way better bedt friend i dont really know why she settled with me...
This really is just gonna be a bunch of gross bitching i guess.
I cant really think of anything else that i should say. theres not really even anything that needs to be said. i was just gonna bitch about missing Thursday and Friday of work and HOW DARE my step dad not let me work Friday when i didnt sleep at all cause i was to anxious to miss a day again.
but i just dont feel like going into it. I feel like going back to w/e i was watching or reading before that let me to my old blog that let me make this one. I dont know if ill even use this to be honest.
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