3:59pm January 10th 2019
Im a bad friend i know that. Might as well talk about it anyways.
Left work at 12:30 today to go get lunch with Kristen and go get signed up for classes at SCC.
Kristen showed up at the garden at a little after 11 witch was odd cause she knows i dont get to work till 11 anymore and that i leave work at 3. But Dan was gone by 12 and i shot him a text saying i had an appointment at SCC (witch i didnt we just showed up) and that i was leaving at 12 and that i would be back.
Kristen and I went to get lunch and then headed to SCC. I got signed up for classes Mon and Wed from 2pm - 330pm and Tue from 6pm to 8pm. This was exciting cause it means that Kristen and i have classes at the same times for all of them at the same campuses and that we even have ASL together. Since Kristen didnt work today i had kinda hopped that we would hang out after going to SCC and since we got to the garden at like 230 i had just decided to not go unlock everything to work another hour and to instead just head home and maybe Kristen and i could watch a movie or play switch or something. But she had been saying she had to take Logan to work at 5. That was fine i thought maybe she would leave, take him to work, and come back. or we could hang out till she had to leave and then she might head home. or maybe i could go with her. But then she started talking about going to hang out with Logan for the rest of the day and honestly i was kinda upset....
She works with Logan and they see each other all the time. She takes him to and from work. Hangs out with him outside of work. Everything. Hell i think Tuesday was the first day ive seen Kristen in a while and even then she had invited me out to eat with her and Logan. I had just kinda hopped today would be our day to hang out... we barely get to anymore...
im still really jealous of Logan. It feels like hes stealing my best friend away from me further than she already was by school and work. I dont want to hold resentment towards him at all but i can already feel the same feeling towards him i always felt towards Cassie's boyfriends. I was always pissed cause Cassie was my best friend and we hung out all the time till she got a boyfriend again and i became second priority. Hell it felt like i became sixth since it felt like whoever her boyfriend was at the time took up the first five slots.
Kristen talks about Logan and texts Logan and leaves to hang out with Logan.
Its also this horrible sour reminder that i cant find a fucking girlfriend or boyfriend. and thinking about that makes me feel like an unlovable piece of shit all over again.
Im excited to have classes with Kristen cause this means that i actually get to see her. Especially now that Logans in the picture.
Left work at 12:30 today to go get lunch with Kristen and go get signed up for classes at SCC.
Kristen showed up at the garden at a little after 11 witch was odd cause she knows i dont get to work till 11 anymore and that i leave work at 3. But Dan was gone by 12 and i shot him a text saying i had an appointment at SCC (witch i didnt we just showed up) and that i was leaving at 12 and that i would be back.
Kristen and I went to get lunch and then headed to SCC. I got signed up for classes Mon and Wed from 2pm - 330pm and Tue from 6pm to 8pm. This was exciting cause it means that Kristen and i have classes at the same times for all of them at the same campuses and that we even have ASL together. Since Kristen didnt work today i had kinda hopped that we would hang out after going to SCC and since we got to the garden at like 230 i had just decided to not go unlock everything to work another hour and to instead just head home and maybe Kristen and i could watch a movie or play switch or something. But she had been saying she had to take Logan to work at 5. That was fine i thought maybe she would leave, take him to work, and come back. or we could hang out till she had to leave and then she might head home. or maybe i could go with her. But then she started talking about going to hang out with Logan for the rest of the day and honestly i was kinda upset....
She works with Logan and they see each other all the time. She takes him to and from work. Hangs out with him outside of work. Everything. Hell i think Tuesday was the first day ive seen Kristen in a while and even then she had invited me out to eat with her and Logan. I had just kinda hopped today would be our day to hang out... we barely get to anymore...
im still really jealous of Logan. It feels like hes stealing my best friend away from me further than she already was by school and work. I dont want to hold resentment towards him at all but i can already feel the same feeling towards him i always felt towards Cassie's boyfriends. I was always pissed cause Cassie was my best friend and we hung out all the time till she got a boyfriend again and i became second priority. Hell it felt like i became sixth since it felt like whoever her boyfriend was at the time took up the first five slots.
Kristen talks about Logan and texts Logan and leaves to hang out with Logan.
Its also this horrible sour reminder that i cant find a fucking girlfriend or boyfriend. and thinking about that makes me feel like an unlovable piece of shit all over again.
Im excited to have classes with Kristen cause this means that i actually get to see her. Especially now that Logans in the picture.
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