7:07pm January 2nd 2019
Im a bad friend.
I should be a better one but to who??
Talked on discord with Zoe for a while. Watched a bunch of dancing video. It was fun. I like watching people dance it makes me feel excited.
Kristen showed up to hang out for a while and i felt like i started ignoring Zoe to talk to Kristen. I wouldnt do that if Zoe would engage in our conversation but all she ever wants to do is show people videos.
So Kristen kinda hangs up the phone on her after a little while since she wanted to talk about the fact that she got a boyfrined.
I feel weird about it. Im really happy for her but im also jealous. Not of her of Logan.
Shes gonna be spending a lot of time with him i guess. I think its making me realize that we dont talk about everything all the time. She doesnt text me like "omg im going to hang out with Logan tonight im so nervous" and i text back "aaaa skdfkdjfd youre fiiine good luck tho!!!" but when i think about it i never texted her about me and Luis hanging out or going to Waffle House or Walmart.
But Luis and I weren't a couple.
Edit: 12:26am January 3rd 2019.
Im scared Kristen will out grow me. Ever since Cassie im still scared of my friends getting in relationships. And im really proud of Kristen for finding someone she likes and being so confident but im scared. Shes not Cassie and thats such a stupid thing to be scared of but i hatted feeling not as important and i think im just scared of feeling that way again.
I should be a better one but to who??
Talked on discord with Zoe for a while. Watched a bunch of dancing video. It was fun. I like watching people dance it makes me feel excited.
Kristen showed up to hang out for a while and i felt like i started ignoring Zoe to talk to Kristen. I wouldnt do that if Zoe would engage in our conversation but all she ever wants to do is show people videos.
So Kristen kinda hangs up the phone on her after a little while since she wanted to talk about the fact that she got a boyfrined.
I feel weird about it. Im really happy for her but im also jealous. Not of her of Logan.
Shes gonna be spending a lot of time with him i guess. I think its making me realize that we dont talk about everything all the time. She doesnt text me like "omg im going to hang out with Logan tonight im so nervous" and i text back "aaaa skdfkdjfd youre fiiine good luck tho!!!" but when i think about it i never texted her about me and Luis hanging out or going to Waffle House or Walmart.
But Luis and I weren't a couple.
Edit: 12:26am January 3rd 2019.
Im scared Kristen will out grow me. Ever since Cassie im still scared of my friends getting in relationships. And im really proud of Kristen for finding someone she likes and being so confident but im scared. Shes not Cassie and thats such a stupid thing to be scared of but i hatted feeling not as important and i think im just scared of feeling that way again.
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